Quick hey from Pulaski
Just thought I'd throw on a note, since Tonya and Dad have been the sole providers recently...
The boys are good - very excited about Christmas, of course, so am I, and that's not really a new thing ;-) School isn't great, but I'll wind my way through the year. I have pretty much decided to go back to teaching, it's really where my heart is, and IR will have me back in Sept. if I want. I will be relocating back to Lowville, and the boys are jumping for joy at the prospect. This year won't be wasted at all - my classes will bump me up the pay scale, and I'm going to look into getting a Master's in Chem instead, I may be able to finish that easily enough in the time I have.
As Sono, Tonya and Mom know, I have also been having some doubts about getting married again. They seem to be getting worse rather than better, and this morning Ken and I agreed to put aside the idea of getting married until we are both sure that it's what we want. Ken knows he doesn't want to be a father at all, including a step-father, and although he believes his feelings won't get in the way of being there for the boys should they need him, I'm not sure I can reconcile that - knowing that what's best for me must also be best for my children plays heavily on my decisions...
We're also trying to work our way through some health issues Ken feels are plaguing him, so until we have done some healing, individually at the very least, together if we can, the plans for a July wedding are off - although I hope to see my male siblings soon, no matter what! I appreciate the support I've recieved this far from my female family, all of you have helped me learn the most about myself and what choices need to be made to be happy - I love all of you!
T
P.S. Clay, you little shit, I haven't heard form you in quite a while, though I hear my sisters have! Tried to call, but not sure if I have the right number... love ya butthead!
posted by Tyna @ 6:18 AM
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